Work

Sometimes, my work is difficult. I can spend a whole day running around putting out fires while other obligations (with strict deadlines) are pushed aside. I stress about the difficult (and life changing) decisions I have to make. I worry about the safety of the children if I don't make the right choice or ask the right question while talking with them. I struggle with people who lie to my face and sometimes have to accept the fact that there is nothing I can do about it, even if I think a child is in danger. I nervously take my opinion before the judge at court and hope that my limited knowledge and experience in the field is sufficient. I get frustrated with cases that are opened on false allegations because of revenge (especially when it is part of a divorce and the children are being put in the middle). I hurt for the adult victims of domestic violence who return to their abusive partners and fear for the children who are put back at risk. I sympathize with parents of teenagers who feel like they are out of options and rack my brain for resources to help. I dot my i's and cross my t's as I document everything and anything that I do and hope that I haven't forgotten a law or policy that I am responsible for. I stress about "the system" and its inadequacies. And I worry that despite my best work, I can not reverse some of the things these children have gone through.

And then there are times, brief, fleeting moments, when I feel empowered. I feel the strength and reassurance that what I am doing it worthwhile. I am reminded of why I went into this field (and it wasn't the pay, I can tell you that much). The passion returns and I feel like I can save the world. And those moments are what keep me going. They are what I hold onto after a long day. They are more powerful than all the difficulties I face. And they are the reason why I love my job.

I watched this video today in a training meeting and it touched me. I hope it touches you.







Here are some other links to songs that I like. Music has always gotten to me, and, I love country, so that influences it too. (sorry that the links don't automatically open in a new window)

Alyssaa Lies (some of the pictures are more of the graphic nature, but the song is powerful)
Temporary Home
Independence Day